are you an anchor?
there are people in our lives who are anchors that keep us grounded, firmly planted roots & settled. then there are the anchor people that drag you down, stop you from moving forward & become albatross suspended around your neck weighting you down. which one are you? as i look around at the people i've chosen to have in my life i've found i have a bit of both. anchors can also be perceived obstacles. i rarely look in the mirror at myself. i've always been that way. i don't like having my picture taken so i force myself to do it anyway. i see flaws where others see success and strength. i'm working on clearing the mirrors to the self going forward. i expect no one to understand my journey but accept the understanding from those who do. others have fears that freeze them in their tracks. my fear means move forward this is the right road. it is not my goal to look at the horizon but to imagine beyond that in the role of visionary. i only look back to learn what the lesson was and i look forward to manifest things to come. i willingly release those negative anchors... #kottavei #thisjourney #artlife #living
"people think it's a complement tell me to think outside the box ...thinking outside the box is still SO limiting. i don't think outside the box! i ask "WHAT BOX?" when questioned about the way I think, I choose to live my life without false boundaries. when there are no walls to knock down then all that's left to do is put one foot in front of the other and move"-Kottavei 2014
"i didn't choose art, it chose me. I came into this world ready to create and every day I have breath, creativity will abound...sometimes if only in my own imagination"~kottavei 2012
this has been a week of imagining & contemplating the possibilities. i'm finding that when you have the ability to do multiple things that editing is very important. i have nine avenues i want to take & explore with my creativity but simply put, i have to start with one. love it. develop it fully then see if it takes me down a light filled road. and should i follow my creative intuition and it lead me to a dead end.... i'll just turn around, go back and retrieve the next idea waiting to be loved.
so i've decided to take some time off to spend more time with my art..... as of july 1,2012 i am claiming a year to delve deeply into to who i am, what i want to say and how to say it visually as an artist. it's easy to get lost in creating a livelihood and paying bills. i had to remind myself that the art i make is for ME first and foremost. the goal is to create those things i wish to. however, i'm always happy and appreciative of those who enjoy it! i will still be selling all the current work listed on the website and there may be a few new pieces added here and there. i will still continue to paint live for my community of poets & musicians! i do look forward to what the next year of creativity brings! all the days of discoveries and days of angst. they will be part of the process. part of this journey. "i am a quiet spirit with a loud presence"~kottavei 2012
"even when surrounded by others, some paths and journeys are meant to be traveled alone. you can't force companionship in these moments"
“Art is a process, not a product.”
MaryAnn F Kohl
i've been feeling somewhat broken lately. not completely shattered but close. change and growth are those ineveitable things that happen....but all at once!!! it's almost as if i'm being completely made over. all the sure footing i thought i had has shifted. what does one do but adapt. i dislike 95% of the art i've done up until this point, which means i need to study and regroup. reevalute my processes, materials and techniques. i need desperately artistically for my eyes, hands and heart to agree....
lately i have been in this state of floral bliss. i want to see them, touch them, smell them and drink their essence in. i even dreakmed up my own perfume i intend to call "white". it has essential oil of all white flowers in it: geranium, jasmine, magnolia and honeysuckle. an undertone of rosewood and a hint of almond. cannot wait to make it and wear it and waft in it!
"Perfumes are the feelings of flowers" - Heinrich Heine
"When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other" - Chinese Proverb
nothing happens by chance. there are no coincidences or accidental occurances. with this said, how do we know whether or not we are working on, in or towards our purpose? are you still breathing? did you wake up this morning? welcome to potential, intentional purpose...: )