artist & author
are you an anchor?
there are people in our lives who are anchors that keep us grounded, firmly planted roots & settled. then there are the anchor people that drag you down, stop you from moving forward & become albatross suspended around your neck weighting you down. which one are you? as i look around at the people i've chosen to have in my life i've found i have a bit of both. anchors can also be perceived obstacles. i rarely look in the mirror at myself. i've always been that way. i don't like having my picture taken so i force myself to do it anyway. i see flaws where others see success and strength. i'm working on clearing the mirrors to the self going forward. i expect no one to understand my journey but accept the understanding from those who do. others have fears that freeze them in their tracks. my fear means move forward this is the right road. it is not my goal to look at the horizon but to imagine beyond that in the role of visionary. i only look back to learn what the lesson was and i look forward to manifest things to come. i willingly release those negative anchors... #kottavei #thisjourney #artlife #living
i recently discovered a statement made by georgia o'keefe. she speaks about how she physically burned all work prior to that we can now identify as her art. i began thinking about how i can metaphorically do the same thing. create a burned, charred ground perfect for becoming more of who i am but in a different direction. the one year haitus from shows i'm taking to spend with my art has proven to be quite challenging. creating for the sole purpose of well,...creating. no destination in site just journey. stirring my purpose, my spirit, my creative juices, planting seeds for what's to come. it is not the lack of ideas but the abundance of too many. forcing myself to edit myself visually. i suppose one way to do that is like georgia o'keefe and throw it all out and start fresh. i think there is more of a bridge from where i was... to where i'm going and instead of burning it completely down, unable to go back, i may just keep the creativity bridge in tact.
“My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend
this first week of 52 spending time with my art has been eye opening to me. i realized that sometimes you have to finish to start fresh. finishing is part of the process. day one was counterproductive. no art was made in the process of looking for myself. then i got a burst of energy and cleaned the art studio. so a clean space is vital in the producing of new art. right? ideas are running a round in my head like birds fluttering. finding ways to make my inspirations mesh. finding ways to make the mediums i choose blend into one seamless visual cohesive piece of visual wonderfulness. in the discovery process i found brokenness, decided to repair me then see what my inner self has to say to my outer creativity. what art will i manifest while being honest and telling my truths? note to self: don't look back we're not going that way!
i love tedium. all those traditional arts that have fallen by the wayside due technological advances, i LOVE doing. cross stitch, embroidery, smocking, miniature dolls, knitting, crocheting, quilting by hand, baking from scratch, basket weaving, etc...there is a solid pleasure for me knowing i made something from very little....
i am who i think i am. in this journey to be a better me i have discovered that i am stronger than i thought. i am more creative than i thought. i am more resilient. i am sufficient, trustworthy, friendly, hopeful, transparent, optimistic, loving, driven, well spoken, free spirited, nerdy, nurturing, and a host of other things. in this journey to learn more about who i am, i see that i am ever changing through growth but the core of who i am is constant. like the earth rotating on it's axis.
i have decided to choose joy. for some there is no choice to be made. i just want to be proactive in the matter. it is my intent to be an ambassador for joy in 2010. you cannot give what you don't have and therefore i am open to the possibilies of big and little things or moments that feed my personal joy...that allow me to shine light with every step, every breath, every word, every deed...and hopefully to everyone i meet. i want people to be changed for having met me. as i grow it is my wish that everyone around me will grow also. remember jack and the beanstalk? all we need to do is plant the seed and amazing possibilities will grow!
nothing happens by chance. there are no coincidences or accidental occurances. with this said, how do we know whether or not we are working on, in or towards our purpose? are you still breathing? did you wake up this morning? welcome to potential, intentional purpose...: )
wisdom comes from unexpected places. i do not discount the things to be learned from children and young people. many assume wisdom has an age on it....i beg to differ. how many times have you heard or said "out of the mouth of babes"? did you REALLY listen to what they have to say? pay attention. you may be pleasently surprised by the lesson of the day....